short, but sweet. HA!

Hey all. Just a small little update.

Since I wrote last I am still at Redefined Property Services working my little bootie off. I have received checks from him and they are being honored just fine, but have decided that this is an added stress that I do not need. I love working for the company and I think my boss is a wonderful man, but having even the slightest worry of not being paid is well worth leaving. I was offered a job working for Dolphin Bay Inn Hotel & Residences and gladly accepted. My mom actually works there! LOL. But she is the Assistant to the Director of Housekeeping. Not the department I will be working in. I will actually be doing front desk, taking reservations and concierges. They pay is less than what I get here, but I am guranteed a paycheck and I get full benifits after a short period of time. I have to wear a uniform too! LOL. A gray pencil skirt with a blue blouse, black cardigan and a scarf. It's a pretty cool little uniform. I don't mind. I haven't had to wear one since I worked at Marie Calenders back in '03. Well, I had to wear a vest at OSH, but that doesn't really count.
I start next Monday. I am so excited!! After I am there for a couple of weeks, I am going to search for a second job. I am going to work as much as I can. I am making it right now, you know, but I need to start saving up money. There is a spa there that offers a %20 discount and hopefully the yoga classes will be only $5 for employees soon. That is another thing I am excited about.
I just got back from a very long, but much needed two week vavcation. This is how it went...

Saturday the 16th we flew into Denver from San Jose. We got in about 11:30pm, got to the house, had a piece of toast and went to bed. We got up the next morning, ate breakfast, got ready and went to the airport to fly into Salt Lake City. When we arrived in Salt Lake, we hopped on the shuttle to get to the car that Mary had left for us. Got in the car, put the keys in the ignition and... nothing. Apparently she had left the XM radio on in the car for over a week and drained the life outta the battery. So the airport emergency people guy dude man person thing came with his big alternator contraption and blasted life back into the battery. Get back in, try to adjust the seats; nothing. So all along were driving from Salt Lake to Island Park, Idaho with the legs stretched as far as humanly possible because the seat was in the all the way back position. LOL.
I feel asleep in the back seat because if I am not driving, then I am terribly bored and I definitely needed the sleep. I slept all the way from Pocatello to Island Park! (Google map it and you'll see how far that is.) Got to Island park, unloaded the car and went to sleep.
Monday morning we get up and try to figure out why the hell the seat won't work. Can't. Spend most of the morning doing that then beg to go into Yellowstone for the day. Got into the park, went to Old Faithful, watched some geysers go off, had some lunch, saw some wildlife (see my flickr photos at http://www.flickr.com/photos/feven) and went back to the trailer. Had some dinner, played war for about two hours and went to bed. Got some very good and much needed sleep.
;-)
Tuesday woke up to Gary's cell ringing. It was Jim telling us that when the guy at the airport jumped the car he also blew something that involved the functioning of the seat so they had to order a part. Mary and Jim came back and we took a drive to Gardiner, Montana through the park. Stopped off at Mammoth on the way and had to hucklberry icecream (friggin' yummy) and saw some elk (see pics). Drove back, had dinner and wine and went to bed. Another good nights rest.
Wednesday, hung out at the trailer, took some pics, went for a walk down a trail to a busted up boardwalk (reminded me of a scary movie) that went out to the endge of the Madison river, came back and well shit. I can't really remember what else we did that day. LOL.
Crap, I need to go.

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updates

i havent written in a while so i thought i would sit down and give you all an update on everything.

so as you may know already, angelica moved in with me. it is working out great! at first she watched breezy while i worked so i didnt have to worry about that and now she has taken over for me at my previous place of employment. now she is able to save up money to get a car. hopefully she will never move out, though. i want her to live with me forever!!!!! muahahahahaha. lol.

i started my new job yesterday. if you follow me on twitter and pownce and iilwy and all those other social networking sites you would know that i am loving it. but for those of you who don't and only know whats up in my life on my blog then i will recap. i started it yesterday and i love it! i probably emailed about 100 times and the same with today. no; emailing is not my job, but its the best way to keep in contact with my boss and thats how he gives me my agenda, which changes all the time. the company has been around for about 20 years, but he just opened an office in slo. my current title is production coordinator. which, in andrew magers words, means coordinator of activity! ha! i have been super busy and the time goes by so quickly. right now, i am bascially just organzing the office and taking all of my boss's calls. calling people, retunring phone calls, faxing, emailing, getting bids, scheduling contractors etc. it is so awesome. and the pay is wonderful too! and will be more wonderful in 60 days when i prove to him that i can kick ass at this job! my office is cool too. i will post pics on flickr sometime next week. i keep forgetting my camera at home. boooooo.

now lastly; breezy. she will be leaving auagust 6th to move out to her dad's in GA. i am incredibly messed up about it and have not been so willingly to let her go. i had to make the decision, though, because she deserves to see her father. and he is almost guaranteed to not deploy for another year. i am just so sad to see her go especially since i have made so much progress with her and her behavior after getting her back from him the last time. but i do know that it will work out for me and for her as well. not emotionally, but in every other aspect of life. with this new job and my feeling so incredibly burnt out and confused, i will have more time to reflect on this past year and see what changes i need to drastically make in my life.

angelica and i are trying our hardest to drop some weight. i was living such an unhealthy lifestyle. and in the past month or so, she and i have made some big changes. we are on slim-fast. yes, thats right; slim-fast. it is actually working out well for the both of us. well, correction-we are drinking kirkland brand slim-fast. it is better tasting anyway. i have dropped some punds and i am sure hellie has too-although she thinks she hasnt- and i feel so much better about my body. mager gave me some good tips too. so i have to give a shout out to him! --ahhhhh laptop is going to die!!!--

well, i should get back to organizing and such. i will update more tomorrow.

start wiping things down!!!

so as i was getting up to flush the toilet yesterday, i had noticed that the toilet flusher thingie was a smudgy. and i thought to myself 'oh my goodness, i wonder when the last time i wiped this thing down?!' (oh, don't sit there all ewwww like; when was the last time you wiped yours down?!?!) then i thought 'i wonder what other things in the house rarely to never get wiped down. so i compiled a list. i was shocked with how many i came up with so i went around the house and cleaned. everything.

door knobs and the spot that surrounds them, remote control, faucet/faucet handles, toilet flusher thingie, towel racks, shower head, edges of counters/coffee table, lamp switches, door locks, cupboard hardware, baseboards,
cell phone, buttons on your electronics, computer keyboard, light switches and the wall that surrounds them, dish drainer, trash can/recycle bin, backs of kitchen chairs

thats all i have for now. if you can think of any more, please let me know and i will add it to the list and go home and clean it. we should all take a little bit of time to wipe these things down more often. germies are no friends of ours!!!

first week of july

started out to be a very good week for me. actually, i don't remember what monday was like-lol- but tuesday was awesome. i got to have lunch with jesse and watch her buy some girlie pants. then later on that night, angelica, bryanna and i met up with jesse, jessica and amanda for as bonfire at avila. go to http://www.flickr.com/photos/feven for those pics. then yesterday-fourth of july,yay!- i met up with jesse and them for a little bit at the beach. gala was having a mad party with free beer and food, but i couldn't stay because i needed to go back to the house for the party they were having. which was a bummer because apparently jesse had something "important" she needed to talk to me about, but obviously couldn't and she had to subject herself to doing it online; which, if you ask me, is so high schoolish and pathetic. but i will not hold it against her. so anyway, i left the beach and hung out with my family and friends and got smashed on some pina coladas. sobered up and around 8:30 or so we walked down to the beach to watch the fireworks. which was a bust because it was too foggy to see the pismo show, but actually ended up to be okay because the people around us made a better show. so it turned out good anyway. bryanna had to go pee very badly so i walked her to a place where she could cop-a-spot behind a tree. she ended up stepping in her pee and was cranky the whole time we were there. i got some pretty decent pics of the fireworks. compared to the auto setting on my camera, the 'scene-fireworks' option doesn't do too bad. omg! i almost forgot to tell you all that i got a new job!!! i start on the 23rd and the position is personal assistant/receptionist!! more money, same hours and much better than here! i am so excited. hopefully angelica will be able to take over my position here. i don't see any reason why not. i mean, she has the same experience as me, she is ready and willing, he doesn't need to find someone to replace me in two weeks and he won't have to go through a temp agency like he did with me; which he has said it cost him more money than it was worth. i had interviewed for that on tuesday. my interview was at 5:30 and we ended up chatting for an hour and 15 minutes!!! he is a local contractor that doesn't do any new development, but remodels homes and turns apartments complexes into condo's. he also flips houses. he's a pretty cool dude. basically i will be taking all of his calls, retrieving bids, filing etc. definitely a good thing for me to be leaving. i hope i am not taking on too much, though. with getting this new job i will not be geeking out so much during the day. i will be too busy and i will miss all my geek programs. :-( i am gaining so much more, though. sooooo monday-wednesday were all good days. then today. jesse and i are talking and she had to start talking-online, none-the-less-about what she wanted to talk to me about. now i am sad, upset,angry, hurt and in a bad mood. i just want to go home and eat a big fat tub of ice cream. but i can't :-( i am going to have lunch with allison tomorrow so that should be good. i saw her yesterday, but i haven't been able to have one-on-one with her in weeks. we have tons to talk about. monday i am meeting jesse for lunch so we can finish our convo in a non-childish way. i have so much to say to her. grrrrr. she wanted to meet tomorrow, but i see it best that i calm down and sleep on all of this new information. that way on monday i will be less hurt, less sad and less pissed off. i hope tomorrow makes up for today. except, i'm putting in my two weeks........

this friday

The new iphone is coming out. I want it!!!! It has every single tool you could ever want on it. Who wants to buy it for me? Get me the IPHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks!

"why i ♥ jesse"

her smile
her cute nose
her laugh
her smell
tiny;cute hands
her legs
her bitchen hair
her eyes
her soft voice
her soft everything
her sweet kisses
her hard shell
her soft middle
"squishy squish"
shes my babe
shes romantic
shes raw
shes emotional
shes honest
shes outgoing
shes sweet
shes cute
no; gorgeous
alright; sexy
and because she ♥ me too

[from the words of tatum i would suppose; i would write more, but there would be nothing left for me to cherish about her]

before i was a mom

Before I was a Mom I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations. Before I was a Mom I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom. Before I was a Mom I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. Before I was a Mom I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Why Geeks and Nerds Are Worth It...

In the wide world of dating, there are many options. Do you go for the flashy guy with the smooth smile, or the dude in the corner typing away on his laptop? The following are reasons why I think my fellow females should pay more attention to the quiet geeks and nerds, and less attention to the flashy boys.

1.) While geeks and nerds may be awkward, they’re well-meaning 9 out of 10 times. That smooth dude with the sly grin and the spider hands? Wonder what HIS intentions are... plus, I’ve never had a geek guy not call me when he said he would. Score major points THERE.

2.) They’re useful. In this tech-savvy world, it’s great to have a b/f who can make your laptop, desktop, and just about anything else that plugs into a wall behave itself.

3.) They’re more romantic than they’re given credit for. Ok true, their idea of romance might be to make up a spiffy web-page with all the reasons why they love you, with links to pics of you and sonnets and such... but hey. It lasts longer than flowers, plus you can show your friends.

4.) Due to their neglected status, there are plenty to choose from. You like ‘em tall and slender? There are plenty of geeks/nerds who are. You like ‘em smaller with more meat on their bones? Got that too.

5.) They’ve got brains. Come on now, how can intelligence be a bad thing?

6.) Most are quite good at remembering dates. Like birthdates and such, especially if they know it’ll make you happy. Due again to their neglected status, they’re more attentive than guys who “have more options”. Plus, with all that down time without a steady girlfriend, they’ll likely have mental lists of all the things they’d love to do once they GOT a girlfriend.

7.) Sex. Yep. Sex. I’m not really familiar with this myself, but I’ve friends who’ve been intimate with geek guys and it’s raves all around. They say a virgin wrote the Kama Sutra... all that time thinking about sex, imagining sex, dreaming about sex, (they are male after all) coupled with a desire to make you happy? Use your imagination.

8.) They’re relatively low-maintenance. Most can be fueled on pizza, Twinkies and Mt Dew. No complicated dinners needed here, so if you’re not the best cook, eh. Can you order a pizza?

9.) Most frequent bars as often as slugs frequent salt mines. You won’t have to worry much about your geek guy getting his “groove” on with club hotties because, frankly, he’ll be too busy rooting around under his computer wondering where that spare cable went. You won’t have to worry about him flirting with other women because, 9 out of 10 times, he’ll zip right by them in a perfect b-line towards the nearest electronics store. I’ve seen this happen.
Me: “Eww. Victoria Secret’s Models... They’re so skinny. How is that feminine? You can see her ribs!”
Geek Guy: “ooooooo...”
Me: “Hey!” *notices he is staring lustfully towards the computer store*
Geek Guy: “What?”
Me: “Never mind...”

10.) Although he may not want to go to every outing with you, you can arrange swaps, as in, you’ll go to his Gamer Con dressed as an elf princess if he’ll take you to the ballet. Plus, if he doesn’t want to go someplace with you, you won’t have to worry much about what he’s up to. You’ll probably come home to find him asleep on his keyboard in a sea of Mt. Dew cans with code blinking from the screen. It’s ok. He’s used to this. Just toss a blanket over him and turn out the light.

11.) His friends aren’t jerks. I can’t stress this enough. You’ll more likely get “Omg! A GIRL!! Can I see?!” than “Hey hot stuff back that ass up here and let me get some grub on...” They’re awkward geeks too and will, 9 times out of 10, treat you with the utmost respect and, more than likely, a note of awe. A cute girl picked one of their clan to date? It could happen to them! Hope! Drag some of your single girlfriends over, open up a pack of Mt. Dew, crack open the DnD set and get working. Nothing impresses geek guys more than a girl who can hack-n-slash (well ok maybe if she can code... a geek can dream).

12.) They’re rarely if ever possessive. They trust you, so you can be yourself around them. You like to walk around the house in a ratty t-shirt for comfort? He won’t care. He does too! They won’t get pissy if you don’t wear make-up or don’t want to bother primping your hair. If you gain a few pounds, they won’t try their best to make you feel like crap.

13.) They’re usually very well educated. Physics majors and the like. See #5. You won’t have to listen to him blathering on about his car (ok maybe a little), he’ll have loads of other interesting things to talk about. Politics, world events, how much the chicken burgers down at the local place rock, so long as you douse them in hot sauce...

14.) You’ll almost never have to hear, “Yaw dawg whazzap!!” plop out of their mouths. Unless it’s in jest. They spell properly, use correct punctuation, and are able to tell the difference between the toilet and the floor. They almost never get “wasted”, so you won’t have to worry about coming home to find him and his friends passed out on the floor amidst a pile of beer bottles. Mt. Dew cans, perhaps...

15.) And the final reason why geeks and nerds make great boyfriends: They actually give a damn about you. Not how you look (though that’s a plus), not how skinny you are, not how much make-up you primp yourself up with, but they like you for you. That kind of thing lasts longer than “DaMN baby you got a fine ass!!!” Believe me.


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i ♥ the internet and blogging and geeky things

i am a geeky girl. i love geeky things. go to http://xkcd.com/. they have some pretty cool geeky things. like this comic. i thought some of my blogger buddies would appreciate it.

random acts of kindness

I was watching a show last night and during the commercial break I had seen a commercial for hospitality. Have any of you ever needed a bit of public help and was saved by a stranger who didn't think of just themselves? Did you ever witness someone who helped out another being in need or maybe YOU were the one to help? Well, you can go to www.behospitable.com and enter in your story there. They will publish it online where everyone can read it and you can read some other's stories too!

iilwy

i was invited to check out a site called iminlikewithyou.com. (thanks a friggin million mager! you rock!) don't really feel like explaining too much of it. its by invite only and once you have the invite, you create a profile, make a game, a get contacts by choosing the highest bidder on your game or being chosen from a game you bid on. if you want an invite, ask me. i'll give you one if you're worthy enough! hahahaha. i gotta give props to 'just because i can' for choosing me to be one of his contacts. i appreciate it man! anyway....

hope you all have a super day and kudos to me for finally getting my mac! yay!

I love my make-up! Lets make a change!

For whatever reason this morning, while I was putting on my make-up, I realized: I really love it! I have spent time and money into building my (small) collection over the past few months. I have spent about 40.00 on the bag itself. Then the contents:

Mirror from Sephora: Free (came with a gift card a so thoughtful and loving friend got for me)
Bronzer Brush from Sephora: 25.00
Full Cover by Paris from Sephora: 30.00
Cover up by Physicians Formula: 10.00
Sugar and Spice blush by Loreal: 8.00
Mascara by Fresh from Sephora: 25.00
Bare Bronze/Victoria's Secret: 18.00
Berry Lip Fusion from Sephora: 38.00
Clinique eye liner from Sephora: 15.00
Brow Brush/Comb: 2.00
Romeo and Joliet nail polish by O.P.I.: 8.00
Rose Quartz eye shadow by Lancome: Free (my auntie's friend works for them so I get free samples a lot)
Emory boards, nail clippers, cuticle clippers and hair ties: ?????
Total (including bag): ~219.00

So I was thinking.... thats a lot of money (for me, at least) to spend on something that I don't really need. And I thought to myself: Geeee, how selfish of me. So What I plan to do is take 100.00 out of my next pay check and 100.00 out of the paycheck after that and donate it to a charity of some kind. That way, I can pay back some of my selfishness to women who are less fortunate. You can help too, in a smaller way of course. The next time you run out of some make-up and you plan on going to buy some more, stop! Take that money and go buy a sandwich at subway and give it to the next homeless person you see or go to the grocery store and buy a bag of groceries and donate it to the homeless shelter. It can make a difference in someone's life. Even if it seems like its something that is too small to do or too little to donate. Too little is a hell of a lot more than nothing. Think about that!

P.S. Did anyone go to www.spreadthesharing.com? Leave me a comment and let me know if you did and I would love to hear your story! I told them about the time in my life when I used to volunteer to make meals for the elderly.

Oh... and I still love my make-up. Even if I have heard that I don't need it! Well, every person who has told me that hasn't seen me with out it so... HA! :-)

Would you like to donate a meal?

Go to www.spreadthesharing.com and they will donate a meal to the hungry (up to one million meals!!!!) for every story you share. I did it and it feels so good to take part on something like this... even if it is something small.

Sanjaya no more and man can I relax now or what?!?!!?

Now I can sit here and rejoice because Sanjaya is no more! I was kinda sorta in a way scared that he was going to make it to the top four, but America finally got their heads outta their butts (and stopped listening to that stupid Howard Stern crap) and he had the least amount of votes. YAY!! Now this is where the real competition is at. I feel that everyone on the show now actually deserves to be there and would be the ones here right now even if Haley and Sanjaya were voted off weeks and weeks ago. OMGosh I can breathe now! LOL... anyway thats my random thought for today. Why the hell do I care about this show anyway?!?! Whow knows? Have a great day and a great Sabbath... ciao!

finally

Okay, so I have to say last nights American Idol was not half bad. I was extremely nervous when they told Sanjaya to sit back down, but already having Haley up there for the top three made me ease back a little bit. She was, indeed, the one who did the worst Tues. night so she deserved to be up there in the bottom three. I am soooooo soooooo glad they finally got rid of her! As soon as Sanjaya is out, I will be completely relieved. I am not too sure on who I want to to win. All the girls; Jordin, Melinda and Lakisha. Between the guys? The best is Blake, but I like Chris and Phil. But to win overall? Jordin because she is 17, Melinda because of her chance to make it big and be in front instead of back-up and Lakisha because she is trying to make a life for her daughter and herself. Melinda is the best, though. She has the most talent, in my opinion. I just don't know. All I know is they finally got rid of Haley and now they need to kick off Sanjaya. Bryanna doesn't even like him!!!!! 8-)

Anyway, off to compressing more files for the company and getting the basics outlined for the web page. Looooong day ahead of me.

American Idol

This is such a stupid topic and I really shouldn't get upset about this, but seriously; why the heck are Haley and Sanjaya still in the competition? I know that the people voted off would have already been voted off my now except for two, but these two people do not deserve to be on the show right now. And the whole votefortheworst.com thing is absolutely childish and vain. American Idol, yes, is about america voting for the ones they love, but honestly; its about talent as well and those people do not have a whole lot of it! Yeah, Haley may be pretty, but she sucks. And well Sanjaya.... he really has nothing going for him except that one time he had straightened his hair. Now I am not saying that he can't sing the correct notes or anything, but Simon said it right last night when he said that Sanjaya sounded like he was 14 when he sung that song. Ugh, so frustrating for me. AJ should have stayed, Stephanie, Sundance, Chris (Sleigh), Gina and anyone voted off after AJ was should have all stayed before Sanjaya and Haley. Ick...

Well, enough rants. Hope you all have a good day!

confused and miguided

today has been such a weird and kind of frustrating day. actually my whole life pretty much. i have been struggling to maintain a healthy and happy life and i have been trying so hard to do so much good and it just seems like no matter what i get sucked down into this dark hole. it just seems like people keep trying to drag me down. well a couple of people in particular, but we don't need to mention them. (ick... just bit into a twix. sorry leo... i don't like chocolate as much as i had led on. oooooops.) i have been trying to clean up the messes i got myself into like my ex husband and some debt and some friendships that i lost. in the past 2 years after filing for divorce and being a free woman and breathing on my own, i have mostly come to terms with a lot of things and have mended some of my broken heart. but i still feel like something is missing.

i can think back to a time when i was happy. when i knew who i was and what i wanted and didn't feel so alone and down. that was when i was going to church and vvaa and was active in pathfinders. i didnt feel alone and i felt like i was; no, i KNEW i was close to Him and knew Him. i felt happy and involved and complete. i am sooooo longing for that. plus, i had made tons of awesome friends and became close to a lot of people. i miss that. i miss all the positive influences and the good times i had. i really think i would be in a better place right now if i hadn't of left chuch and vvaa and pathfinders. well, i wouldn't have bryanna, i amcertain of that; so that wouldn't be a very good trade, but sometimes i wish i could take my old life back and still have her. i know i would be happier and more positive and have a better overall outlook on life. and i would know Him.

i pray every day. i pray for many reasons too. for friends and family and people i dont know and myself and my daughter and before every meal and before i go to bed. the kind of life i have right now and the situation i have been placed in by that freaking a hole has put me into a position to where i feel like i need to ask for forgivness every day. an all though i don't mind communicating with Him, i want to feel at ease and not have pressure on asking for His forgiveness every day.

i also want to be able to provide a better life for bryanna. i want her to be able to have the opportunities that she needs to have her excel in life and have everything she wanted. so far, her father (and i am NOT trying to ex-husband bash here) hasn't really been that grat of a role model. right after i had her i was forced to go to work full-time and finish school full-time because he was too lazy to work and was in school (but slacking!). so he was always home with her and never gave her a structured environment. he always spolied her never disciplined her.... actually about that whole discipline thing.... for example: if she did something she wasnt supposed to or got into something she wasnt supposed to he wold ignore it. but if he was in the middle of a tv program or video game or on the computer and she interrupted him or asked for something or wanted to eat he would spank her. so she always felt like she was doing something wrong. since hes been gone i have been trying to reverse those effects and give her a more balanced and structured environment. it has definitely been a task, but i am not giving up! i want to bring her to chuch with me, but she hasnt expressed or shown any interest in wanting to go. i wish she would, but i cant force it upon her. it would defnitely be a learning experience for her right now, but i know later on she will understand it more and get more out of it. i started going to church when i was 7. i loved it. all the stories of christ and b.c. always fascinated me.



ICK! i need to get going. i'll write more in a bit.

tragic lives are lost

I found out that one of my friends from a long while ago... one of my BEST friends, just died. I am sure some of you heard about it, but it was Anthony Stepaniak. Him and I were friends from 7th grade until our senior years. Then we lost touch.
A lot of why we lost touch was because of his girlfriend. He started dating this chick who has issues and put a lot of stress and grief on him. Needless to say; I didn't like her. (If anyone who is reading this is her friend, I am sorry for what I am about to say, but this has nothing to do with you.) She constantly was fighting with him and pulled him into meth and caused a lot of problems. Brought the worst out in him, if you will. Hes a great guy, who made a lot of bad choices and one of them was her. I guess this (bitch) called the cops on him once again and it pissed him off so he took the car (he bought her) and went driving off. She reported it stolen. He was out on highway 58 when he took a turn too fast and flipped the car several times. He was taken to French hospital and died later on. I'm not saying this is her fault... I'm just saying.
Now I have totaled it up.... over the past 4 years, I have lost 20 friends to either car accidents or suicide. One of them affected me tremendously and I still haven't been strong enough to let go. Please; if you have common sense... DO NOT SPEED!!!

Well, back to work and back to feeling shitty. Damn sickness and allergies.

The Stepaniaks: I am praying for you.