extreme crap...

I just found out recently that one of my best friends just got arrested. She was pulled over for whatever reason and then searched. She was with someone and his son (who was a minor) in her car and was caught with possesion of meth. now theyre trying her for distribution because i guess she had a lot on her. her bail is 34,000.00 so its a felony charge which she is looking at some prison time. i am going to go to her court hearing on friday and go visit her in jail on saturday. i freakin am so fucked up about this. i am mad at her for even putting herself in that situation, but i am sad because i cant pick up the phone and call her. she cant pick up the phone and call me. i love her to death and i care about her so much i hate that shes in this place. i wrote her a letter telling her that i am here for her. if she needs me to go to her court hearings, im there... if she needs me to visit as often as i can, im there. i will write her every week and will do what i can to be there for her with the limitations she has. i know that none of her friends are even going to give a crap about this. theyve always turned their back on her when she needed someone. (not bragging) but i have always been there for her. i had just barely gotten to know her and offered my home to her and her husband when they didnt have a place to go. and even when i didnt have a place to live and was with my mother i offered her the couch i slept on so she wouldnt have to sleep in her car. she tried asking friends (who had their own places) but they always said no so she had to sleep in her car those nights, but i was always there for her and i am going to be there for her now. i just hope she knows that i am thinking about her and that i will be there for her. man.... this fucking sucks